desh | scattered

I keep not thinking of anything interesting to write about that's more than 2 sentences long. And I keep not remembering the shorter ideas either.

I spent half the weekend in New York. Saw tons of people from my past, both surprises and not, and both recent past and way in the past. I like it there, sometimes.

Then I had dinner last night with my dad, step-mom, and step-brothers, to celebrate that my dad's been cancer free for a year! Yay!!! Great dinner, too. Mahi-mahi is my new favorite fish.

The Eagles won again. Yay!

Why is it that "dance like no one's watching" has such a good rep, but "sing like no one's listening" doesn't? I think that's silly. This is the final justification I need to never hold back my singing. I mean, I think I have a decent voice, but if you disagree, I officially no longer care.

<jew-stuff> At Kol Zimrah Friday night, I learned great melodies for ma'ariv aravim and v'shamru, both written by the guy leading services. Too bad I have no musical memory. I'll try to get Ben to send me some sort of copy of them, so I can really learn them. I did remember the melody for yigdal that we did, though, which I'd heard once before. I really need to collect a bunch these, and then actually lead services somewhere at some point. Still haven't really ever done that. I think that not only would I be capable of doing so at this point with only a little preparation, but I'd do an amazing job with either psukei d'zimrah or Shabbat ma'ariv in particular. </jew-stuff>

Regular paychecks are nice, I have to say. Being un-unemployed has its benefits.

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DDR. Absolutely, DDR.

hey, do i know you? your pic looks queer so i assume if

desh has any queer friends besides me i would know them...

*grins* no, you don't know me. my icon is from a great rock-n-roll documentary called hard core logo, if you can find it, you should totally check it out. it's canadian, so it may be hard to find in the states, but tarantino recently produced the dvd release so it might be available, esp. in indie video stores. the movie has queer subtexts but isn't overtly gay related. that aside, yup, i'm friends with desh and i'm queer, although i don't so much use the word "queer" to define myself, for no particular reason. desh and i know each other from havurah. i like your icon too!!

nice to meet you,

-spice

there is something to be said for good credit and for treating your body well. But good credit needs to be paid for, after all you could just go running :)

my dad's been cancer free for a year
Mazelmazelmazelmazelmazelmazelmazelmazelmazelmazelmazelmazelmazelmazelmazelmazelmazelmazelmazel TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOV!

We should start a club. What would our witty acronym be?

Yeah, I don't know. My brain can't do "cancer" and "witty" at the same time.

CaReFREE - Cancer Recurrence Free

It's not that witty, but it IS an acronym.

--Jeff

Okay, come on, people. I know, being responsible is good and all, and one should pay one's bills. But I deliberately made this poll so that you could select more than one option. Are you sure some of you Responsible Adults don't want to change your answers to give me at least one video game?

what's castlevania? if i knew maybe i'd pick it. i'm with k, exercise is free. lift canned vegetables, go running, lift your smaller friends, take brisk walks, go dancing, these things are good for your body and free.

anyway what's dance dance revolution? i voted for it but i don't know what it is.

They're both video games. Castlevania is of the ordinary sit-with-a-controller-and-play variety, whereas DDR is a good deal more active. I can't describe it well, though. You dance. Sort of. But not really.

And re your comment above: I know lots of queer people that you don't know! I resent that implication, even though I don't know what it is that you're implying!

okay, i'm changing my vote. no video games for you.

and re my comment above/yr queer friends:
i was partially joking, but the part that wasn't joking meant 'queers' not 'gays lesbos bisexuals'.. i guess i meant 'radical queers.' i don't think of you as someone who hangs out in radical queer circles [correct me if i'm wrong]. that's not to say that all your friends who i don't know are straight. [do you still resent the implications, now that you know what i was implying?]

No worries, I was partially joking too.

wait.. does that mean you really don't have any other queer friends?

[want some? i've got extra. *grin*]

I'm reasonably certain that you do not know me either. Come to think of it, I might count Havurah as a radical queer circle.

really? are you going to give desh The Gay [aka Gay Cooties]? this is getting exciting.

if desh and i had ever dated [properly and indisputably] i would spend a lot of energy trying to convince him that he was queer [on account of i'm not a girl and for a boy to date anyone but a girl.. etc]. this would be a lot of fun for me but i'm not sure how much fun it would be for anybody else - not that that matters. :]

Ha!

Back when we weren't dating, though, I think you were pretty sure you were a girl. Or at least if you weren't, you certainly didn't tell me that.

And I'm not convinced that you and

conana don't already know each other.

i believed in the gender binary back then, sure. but i was never sure i was a girl. i remember being eight years old, sitting on the toilet and wondering if i just had a really small penis and that was why everyone thought i was a girl - and then i remembered i had long hair. 'i must be a girl,' i thought. 'boys don't have long hair.'

logic at its finest.

and it doesn't really matter if you thought i was a girl or what. if you were attracted to me [which i know you were at one point - at the very least, on the infamous double date with klah and eli] then you were attracted to a genderqueer with, at the time, i think some mild gender dysphoria. i don't know for sure but i think that's what i've got now that keeps me from leaving my apartment because i hate the way people look at me and know who/what i am when i don't know who/what i am. only its stronger now. but i had it then, i just knew if i dressed sorta femme and didn't think about it too much then i wouldn't be questioned and i could kiss boys and sometimes girls and it would be okay.

if you'd like, i'll continue trying to convince you that you're a homo but i'd rather focus those energies on people like rob kallin and my more recent ex nick, who identify as hetero and whom i dated for four months each [my longests]. but it's fun for me so whatevs.

hmm. right. I had not put it together. We've met once or thrice, at least.

Oh, yeah... you should get your ass off the couch and to a gym, flabby. Or, at the very least, get DDR and get some exercise.

--Jeff

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